Hope you are all enjoying the last weekend of summer! My kids don't go back to school for another whole week, but we're at the Shore one last time, grilling up a storm of course! "Fabulicious! On the Grill" is available in bookstores everywhere and on Amazon: http://amzn.to/RtCq8e and you can get my delicious new food line imported from Italy at www.skinnyitalianfoods.com.
Well, I loved this episode & I hated it. I loved it because I really loved the entire experience in Arizona. I love new things. You didn't see me making fun of the counselors or putting it down or whining in bed because I really appreciated everything about it. Part of life is to keep learning new stuff, and I love that. I was open to everything: the drums, the psychic, the horse, the high-wire. We were there to get some healing, and I was ready. I was tired of crying! Some good vibes and happiness were welcome!
I hated this episode though because you got to see everyone else's full experience with Wyatt the Horse Whisperer except mine. I know they can't show everything, but both my brother and I were able to approach the horse with openness and honesty, and he lifted his leg for both of us. For me, it was a really big accomplishment, and I'm sorry you didn't get to see it. I'm also sorry that Melissa chose to speak for me on Twitter and say that we all regretted not opening up for the horse. I don't regret it because I did open up! Why she alone didn't is for her to explain...
Everyone is afraid of something, and for me, full-grown, giant-ass animals that I've never been around before are it! I was so freaked out that the horse would turn around and bite me or kick me or something. It's no joke! Maybe if I had known the horse since it was a pony, I wouldn't have been afraid of it, but I didn't. I had a bad experience on a horse once in Aruba. And I know animals sense fear, so that made my fear even worse!
But one thing I'm not is a quitter. I like to push myself and learn new things about myself, and I didn't want to give up. I did get the horse to lift its leg for me, I did scrape its hoof, and I was soooooo proud of myself afterwards!
I'm super bummed that some of the people that were there with me like Caroline and Kathy and Melissa, who saw me overcome my fear and work with the horse successfully, acted like I didn't. Everyone is afraid of different things. Caroline grew up on a farm, so the horse was no problem for her. It was scary and different and strange for me. The next day when we were up on the high-wire, I had no problem, but Caroline had a melt-down. Heights are really hard for her. She was hysterical crying, and wouldn't do it. I didn't judge her or say she wasn't opening herself up. I knew it was hard for her. I encouraged her, reminding her that I overcame my fear with the horses, and she could overcome her fear of heights.
For Caroline to say I'm just like Melissa, and that I'm superficial, says a lot about her character. She saw that I did open myself up to the experience, so for her to lie like that makes no sense to me. I thought we were there for healing, and I certainly didn't belittle her for her fears. She was miserable the entire trip, fighting with Albert the whole time. And she has the nerve to say I didn't embrace it? Disappointing.
You could see how into the whole experience I was when Jacqueline was up there crying and I ran up to give her a hug. I was just really happy the whole time, so happy we were all there to support each other.
We were filming at the ranch for hours and hours, and at one point, natured called and my Joe got up to go to the bathroom. When he was walking back, Milania called, so he answered. He waved me over so I could talk to her too. We had been there all day, and I wanted to make sure there wasn't anything wrong at home. I missed my girls! I can't believe of all people that Kathy didn't understand that, but I guess she and Rich have a limited memory for things. For Rich to talk about my husband delaying legal issues is insane to me. My husband cannot control the legal system, and Rich of all people knows this. Rich's had his fair share of lawsuits and I would never comment about his behavior in them. Shameful.
I'm glad you got to see a lot of the good times we do have though. Joe resting his head on my shoulder. Albert opening up. Caroline saying she wanted to hug Joe. Chris saying he loved me. Jacqueline and I cleaning the bottom of each other's shoes... I think you got to see a lot of honest interactions, and different sides to all of us.
As always, thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support! It means the world to me.